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My tears well up in the wee hours of night

Thinking of all the could-haves and mights

Drenched in pain and sorrow, I cry

Want to yell out but don't want anyone to pry

These trust issues

Make me feel as fragile as tissues

The stabbing pain

Makes my heart feel insane

Breaking me apart

I keep hurting the ones who love me

Because of the ones who didn't

I'm letting my past hold me hostage

'This too shall pass'

Is what I always say

However, 

I feel stagnant

With no hope, light or ray